Hypocrisy Vs Truth?

Wow!Been through quite a bit recently during my journey in life man.What's strangest,even though is seems like it's going to be the lowest period of my life,I still felt that something more is going to come my way soon.Oh well,no choice,guess that's the only life's gonna be like,going down slopes.How am I gonna start to say this?Well,let's just say,life came upon me with 3 main types of people.The hypocritic,the true friends,and strangely,the stickers.


Let's start with the hypocrite.Sometimes,I wonder whether is it just me being too kind or someone just love to play pranks on me.Ran into so much trouble with him trying to change everything and adding stuff that did not happen into what I said,when it was the opposite.Oh my god!Didn't know these kind of people exists man.Whatever good things said,HE said it.Whatever bad things happened,wow!I'm actually the person who did them.When time and time again it showed that it was the other who actually said them,and did, in this context.Well,what can I say?I'm in the wrong here,I borrowed money from him,unable to repay on time,what can I say?Seriously,one who always says treat you as friends,preaches to you that friends is important,calling himself a peacemaker,saying what money spoils relationships,forces you to the extent that you have hardly any place left to breathe.So,that's called whatever you have done to be correct,and whatever I said that I'm seriously trying my best to pay as wrong?How nice.How simple to push ALL blames on me,and ALL the rights onto yourself.Just because I borrowed money from you,it doesn't actually mean that I owe you my character,my pride,my everything.Yet,time and time again you insulted me,insulted my character,insulted my pride,insulted my principle of life.This is what you'd call a friend?This is how you wish for a friendship to be built upon?A friend who almost pushed another to the verge of dying due to stress,and you call that a friend?Seriously,I really wish to ask you,what exactly is your principle of life?Friends who lets you push them around?Wow!How nice.How about I do this exact same thing to you and ask you how you feel?This is simply unbelievable man.Oh nevermind,since this is your way of life,let's just see when you'd run into your own trouble then.We shall see.


The next kind of friend,which I'm seriously grateful to,are those that really treated me as true friends.One whom I'm really grateful to.The only one thing that did not force me to jump over the wall was that I only had 1 hypocrite,many true friends who really cared for me.Sacrificing myself because of this 1 guy when there's so many friends who would be sad for me,it's seriously not worth it.Well,friends who'd lend you money,saying that they'd only need it AFTER i clear my debts,friends who'd scold me because I'm not doing my best,but trying to run away from the problem that I'm supposed to face,and the harsh reality.I can't say that I'm a very macho person who'd bear with all these with a thanks alot.They really forced me on the verge of tears due to the fact that,in my darkest times,they're still willing to stand by my side.I can't say that there are people who did not had it worse,but,for me,these kinds of things seriously forced me to the point where I cannot take it anymore.I really can't say too much on them.What I'd experienced with them is,what can I say?You have to experience it yourself to know what happens.All I can really say is,countless thanks to them when my resolve almost broke,when my heart almost died,when my brain stopped to think.They gave me the hope to lift myself up again,gave me the soul to hold myself,and gave me too much that they'd even imagined.I can't say it again.I'd just say,I just hope to be there for them when they need my help,which I don't hope that they'd experience again.


Lastly,the last kind of people that I've met.What I'd call as stickers.People who sticks themselves on you when they have trouble.After solving their problem,ignore you like you are some kind of pest,and sticks themselves onto another.Then,when that person stuck on is gone,trying to find you again to stick onto you.What kind of a person is this?Seriously I do not know what is it that they exactly want.I'd only say one thing.My soul is too tattered and torn to experience yet another kind of feelings like this.So,when somebody is trying to become a sticker and stick themselves onto me,I'd just flatly refuse them,push them aside,and tell them straight in the face.I seriously don't wish to experience another kind of feeling of being at a loss,being unable to do anything because the habit is there already.The feeling of being lost in a black hole where nothing exists,and whatever you eat,whatever delicacies become like dust,it seriously freaks me out to think that it may happen again.The loss,I'd rather lose a chance to find another true friend then to experience it again.This kind of feeling happened to me ONE too many a time.


Seriously wonder how do people think.How can there be people who do things that don't even consider about other people,thinking about themselves only,even though they claim to be the kind that are steadfast in their thoughts,being true to their friends.Yet whatever happens they just say that it's not their fault,it's just the fault of others.Yes,pushing responsibilities brings you nothing,but what do you get in the end?The feeling of not being in trouble?Or the agony that you have betrayed your friend and that you have lost a friend due to this.Some even try to remedy it by saying that they are treating you as friends,yet pursuing you like you are some criminal.Well,let's just hope and see what kind of results they'd get in the end,since it's THEIR thoughts,and not mine.Good luck to them man.

Life's Hopes and Memories

Learnt a very inspiring message today.Something that I learnt while watching midnight show,and talking to someone about maple,and crap,and another about cabal.Which is something quite absurd and ridiculous.It's only one sentence,yet the meaning brought out is so touching and so true that it touched my heart straightaway.The inspiring phrase for me was 'we live today for the sake of creating memories in the future.'This phrase is,although very short,with a bit of melancholy inside.Yet,when I started to ponder abit,it all makes sense.

Firstly,when one get started as a baby,we know nothing,absolutely nothing.We don't even know the basic,only our instincts gave us our survival needs.Also,we started to learn the basics,learning to walk,learning to think,and learning to differentiate right from wrong.From here,the path of everyone starts to differ,which brought about changes to people.All of these starts from when we are children,which is our past.Then,isn't it our past,our memories,that brought about changes in our lives?Isn't the future a link to the past?We use what we learnt in the past to correct ourselves in the future,we bring our memories as lessons learnt to what we are going to do.Now,is that a truth?Somehow I wonder whether it's exactly true or not.Yet,the more I ponder,the more vivid that memory came to me.I learnt many in the past.I got hurt,cried,angry,disappointed,happy,excited,glad,all sorts of feelings.Also,I learnt about what happened happens for a reason.I don't know how and why,but somehow,the people seems to give us a reason to live,and also a reason to continue to want to live,even though sometimes the feelings asks us to really wish to find death as a solace to our scarred hearts,and our dried tears.

Let's just ask ourselves,how long have all of us lived in vain throughout our lives?Seriously,I find that NONE have lived their lives in vain.Even for those who knew that lives have only one thing in life,they learnt it right at the last moments in lives.For those whom people always say that they have not learnt anything,are we sure that while they are out doing all sorts of stuff that people do not condone,they have not learnt?Can we say,those that live their lives under a golden spoon,they do not know what is poverty?Many things have their pros and cons.Yes that we know.However,are ALL the pros pros and all the cons cons?Decide for ourselves.So long as the journey one take will let people know what is it in themselves that they want to know,they are on the right paths.This is due to the difference in lives,and memories,that they have had.Many may say that I look carefree and not-caring,while others look at me as someone very pessimistic and melancholic.I will say only one thing,both of them are right.It's my memories that brought me where I am and where I will go.What's yours?Where would it lead you to?Happy?Sad?Don't tell me please.I do not wish or need to know.Put the question to yourself and ask your own heart.Since you know that heart is the hardest to lie to,and also the easiest to lie to.For those whom they think I'm saying them,YES!I'm talking about you.ALL of you.Those who think that they are in the middle of nowhere,and those who think that they are everywhere.Look to yourself and ask yourself.Are you being true now?True to yourself?If it's not,what's the reason?And,lastly,WHY?